hello,

today, one of the most important people in my life turn seventeen. (: now seventeen sounds really old to me. she's gives off these awesome vibes and i always feel so awesome when i'm standing next to her. i love you, elicia chin.

Happy Seventeenth Birthday,

this was such a long time ago ! hahah, like, 2008 !

SEVENTEEN YEARS OLD, WOMAN :D

i forgot this, and the new editor is real bitchy so i'm just gonna-

Happy Birthday, Elena Lee Ze-Tien (:

my baby flyer.
i'm so sorry for all the times i dropped you. i promise, that if you fall again, i'll be there to catch you, even if i break my back doing it. :)

au revoir 2009 !

well, i can say that i'm not gonna miss 2009. sure it's been a great year but there are some things i'm not so proud of. things i beat myself up over. so here i am, blogging, in hopes that i will let go of whatever guilt i still feel from past events. writing this post will probably be the most sakit hati thing i've done in a long time, but so you know, everything you are about to read is the truth.

family,

i know this is a bad picture, i'm sorry.

parents,

my parents and i have always been close. july 2009, we had some problems and since then, i've been trying to repair the relationship between me and my parents. going well so far, but things like this take time. right now i'm just working on being the best daughter i can possibly be to them. i love you, mummy & daddy.

brandon joshua hon tze wei,

sorry kor but i like this one.

OMG I KNOW LAH, i'm such a bitch to you. eventho i know it's my fault, i always blame you, and always win (HAH). everytime i walk into your room and say, "bitch la you" .. you know i actually mean, "hey kor, i love you". :)

friends,

i'm aware some of you are not here but i needed a picture with alot of people ): okay wait,

nah. (some people in picture above are not loved _|_)

i'm so glad that i was able to grow so close to some of you. without you guys, i really couldn't have pulled through all the shit this world has thrown at me. i really feel lucky to have such wonderful (gayword) awesome friends like you (YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!) and our friendship will continue to grow .. blahblahblah you know i love you and that's enough. :)

" You are my best friend in the world.

And I hope that you know,

when we hangout together,

it's freakin' awesome. "

BFFF by bowling for soup.

boyfriends,

were you expecting a picture ? (: (: (:

if you are an avid reader of my blog (or if you go to my school), you would know about the five month relationship i had with oja. i wouldn't say it was awesome or fairytale worthy (definately not). in relationships there are the good times and the not so good times but one thing for sure is that i DO NOT regret anything. oja and i made alot of mistakes and learned from them, if you want to judge me or oja for whatever we did back then, i'll have you know that people change (and you can go fuck yourself). basicly, if i was to ever hit an all time low, this was probably it.

anyway the relationship ended somewhere before finals and i'm trying to stay far far away from getting into another one. at least, for now :P

enemies,

AHAHA. i bet you're waiting to read something juicy (kepoh bitches). but sorry, nothing happened this year ! if you wanna hear about the small stuff, come ask me (i'm kidding, don't ask me. cause chuck norris will be there to roundhouse kick you in the face).

myself,

i've changed. alot. some people may have noticed, some maybe not. but i know i have. i am glad that i was able to have gone through whatever i went through this year. i just hope 2010 won't be as shitty as 2009 because somewhere in the middle of the year i contemplated committing suicide while suffering from mild depression. i remember the feeling. wanting to just slit my wrists. i thought it through and i'm glad i didn't do it because everything is fine now. though sometimes i still get the feeling, i shake it off and do toetouches. i guess you can say i'm happy,

most disgusting picture of 2009.

"everything that has happened to you in your life - the good and the difficult - was necessary to help you become the person you are now " -robin sharma.

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i wanna end this post by apologizing to every single person i have ever talked about behind their back (i probably did it on purpose, btch). i really mean it when i say that i'm sorry and i hope that you'll forgive me.

2010, i'm going to TRY and be nicer to everyone (yes lee sian, to you too).

happy new year, BONJOUR 2010 !

thanks for reading, ashley.

p/s ; this post was written on 26th december 2009.

i'll probably be shitass tired but i'll stay up to post this entry.

because it's special. :)

milo turns fifteen (finally) !

i had to re-make the video three times! but i hope you like it milo.

i miss ;

playing with barbies with you in my tv room, making you stand on a chair and spell my full name (that was torture eh babe), walking around my neighbourhood with storybooks in our backpacks, sitting on my kitchen counter eating toast at 3am while our mom's mahjong away, making all my softoys talk to amber, sliding down my staircase on a mattress, watching totally spies with the tv room curtains closed, playing masak-masak, and -insert cute childhood memory- .. CAUSE YOU NAME IT, WE PROBABLY DID IT.

i love you milo. :)

p/s ; this post was written on the 28th december 2009.

i don't know exactly what i'm blogging about but i know that i wanna get this done before the new year starts.

sunday headed to ou with the fam. bought some stuff. after mum paid for it, for a second i thought, "screw the dslr lah". doesn't change anything, i still want it. :)

brother.

lady gaga ; trendsetter or fashion victim ?

trendsetter.

(watching step up 2 now, and brandon just went, "girl can you stop blogging, you need to watch")

at night went to kota damansara for dinner.

that's aunty jammy in the back. :)

i bought ;

shades, rm23 vincci accessories.

i told the counter guy i wanted big and white. spotted this one and fell in love, but it was the last pair. :O o well.

seed bag, rm129 vincci accessories.

top, from p&co.

HAHA was doing the nazi salute then mom came into the shot. she's trying to hide the humidifier she's holding.

studded belt, rm27 vincci accessories.

(so much more worth it than the belts at deeper&harder)

monday, ou again.

ikr, SUSHI.

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around 5-ish ian, mendy and sasi came over after their movie at cineleisure to teman me for dinner (thanks guys, appreciate it) as i didn't eat since 6am that morning.

my teeth look horrible here. ):

"this is so lala" - sasi.

mixed berry ,

sasi stuck a fork in my ice-cream )':

bought this while waiting in the morning, rm53 after 10%
(thanks mun for text-temaning me)

(: left toes are painted yellow, pink on right toes.

nah let you laugh lah,

damn fail.

milo love, this one is for you.

i miss you !

needed to get some stuff for some people so went to ou with ian yesterday.

met up with mich the bitch a lil bit later.

scratched against the glass ):

it really hurt and all my dad could say was, " don't be such a wimp " -.-

eversince i bought the cute little plasters, i never got anymore cuts ! so i was happy i finally got to use one :P

mich chose the alligator over the elephant. 

and ignore the spots on my thigh, i scratched the night before.

i bought blue pedicure vita from skin food. :)

i needed studs for school so ian got me these.

it was either this, the pretty purse or the belt from deeper&harder.

there was this really nice belt i wanted to get but they had no stock ):

anyway, THANKS IAN.

and this is what the scar looks like ..

added to my list of scars. ): ):

bye. (: